this week I've been stuck inside my head. so stuck that I'm almost tired of listing to the running commentary that is my inner dialogue. let me tell you, this brain can take overanalysing to a whole new level. I'm gearing up for this crazy thing that my boyfriend is making me do. just kidding, I signed up for this myself (with more than a little coercion). buuuut I'm freaking out just a little. on paper, my job is to serve people in such a capacity that I can help them make their health and fitness goals become reality. but really, my job is mostly to tell people to get over their sh*t and start believing in themselves. we all have those sabotaging tapes that play over and over in our heads that tell us we're not good enough - strong enough - thin enough to accomplish X Y + Z. and when a client tells me something to that extent, I am the first to call BS and say, yes, yes you can. you ARE good enough, strong enough…you just have to be brave enough. and while I'm very good at calling other people on their sheeeeeit, sometimes I need someone to call me on mine.
and well, that happened. I may have voiced some idea about not being good enough at a certain something and I got put in my place. and rightly so. because you don't get better at something by being great at it. no one is born a champion. champions are made. they are ordinary people who decide to be extraordinary by putting in the work; committing to the grind, day after day, and getting back up after they fall. again and again. the best things come from failure, from trial and error, from fear and bravery and practice. practice, practice, practice. I once heard someone say, if you're not willing to look stupid, nothing great will ever happen to you. so here it goes. bring it on. failure, success, fear, nervous urination (this one's for you ladies). because dammit, I want great things to happen to me. no, I want to make great things happen.
so, in an effort to get out of my head, I'm finding strength in the words of others. maybe they will speak to you as well.
so, team, let's go do this thing. I'll be the one in the singlet. and for everyone else, go do something that scares you half to death.
and babe, thank you for believing in me, even when I don't have the strength to believe in myself.
Eat well. Live well. Be well.